“If two people love each other, but they just can’t seem to get it together, when do you get to that point of enough is enough?… never, never.” -The Mexican

“All men dream; but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that it was vanity; but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act out otheir dreams with open eyes, to make it possible.” -T.E. Lawrence

“Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.” -Lao Tzu

“A dreamer is one who can only find his way by moonlight, and his punishment is that he sees the dawn before the rest of the world.” -Oscar Wilde

“This is my one and only life. It is a great and terrible and short and endless thing.” -Hilary Swank (from some movie)

“There are always a million reasons not to do something… You gotta take a chance on something sometime.” -The Office (US)

“we all deserve to be with someone who wants to be with us” -the Office (US)

“Immature love is wanting someone to be happy, but just with you. Mature love is wanting them to be happy, full stop.” -Reba

“Nothing in life that’s worth having comes easy” -Dr Kelso, Scrubs

“The only true currency in this bankrupt world is what you share with someone else when you’re uncool.” -Almost Famous

Technorati Tags: angst, diary, emotion, feeling, hurt, journal, life, love, notes, pain, people, questions, random notes, random poetry, random things, random writings, relationship, write, writing

It’s funny when I look back at some of the things I’ve written… my notes, things about my life and whatever I have been going through at certain points… sometimes I think it was so silly how I felt about things or what I was worried about.

I hope that what I’m going through at the moment becomes one of those times. It’s one of the hardest things in the world to release someone knowing that you really couldn’t live without them and if you couldn’t be with them, then things would get scary. I always thought that if a man and woman really loved each other, then they could go through anything together, supporting each other and sharing in the struggle. I’m learning that life sometimes throws things in your path that you would never have expected. Sometimes those things need to be handled in more creative ways. And just when I think I have everything figured out, things get flipped up-side-down… over and over again… maybe I should learn to expect the unexpected. However, one of the biggest things I struggle with at the moment is patience to wait through these uncertainties.

I hope that soon I can look back at this post and think how silly I am to be anxious about these things.

Technorati Tags: anxiety, anxious, break, emotion, feeling, happiness, heart, hurt, journal, life, love, moment, mystery, new, notes, pain, people, questions, relationship, separation, struggle, time, writing

I’ll be moving the (2) recipes I’ve posted so far onto this new site and hopefully posting plenty more soon, so check it out!

myrandomrecipes.com

Technorati Tags: bake, cooking, cupboard, easy recipes, food, freeze, hobb, kitchen, oven, quick recipes, refrigerate, simple recipes, stove, stuff to make

So I glanced at the cover, then put it aside while I ravaged the Reese’s Peanut Butter Christmas Trees and opened my Magic Crystal Christmas Tree Kit… always a favourite.

Later I was talking to my sisters about the books we had received and I mentioned the one above. Before I could attempt to make fun of it they stopped me and told me that this was one that I had to read. At first I wasn’t sure about it, but they insisted that it wasn’t a book I should throw in my closet and allow to gather dust. They were so adamant that I began to read later that night… and continued to read until early morning.

From the first pages you can tell that this book will completely revolutionise the way that women should relate to men. I spent all night with my mouth hanging open and a constant ‘light going off’ in my head. I thought that I was a pretty level-headed woman who understood a bit about men, but I was sorely mistaken. I realized that as the book points out, men and women are ‘wired’ differently, completely differently! This book was written by a women who, rather than communicating what she understands about men, decided to take surveys of men based on things women want to understand about them and simply publish the answers with her explanations. The book is written in simple language, using real life examples and explanations of the ways a man’s mind works. Before reading this book I had a completely different understanding of how men and women are different, but I had no idea of just how completely different we are!

I recommend that every women, whether married for 50 years or happily single, pick this book up, read through it and allow your mind to be opened to understand the opposite sex!

• If you wish to buy this book, you can find it in ‘my store’

Technorati Tags: devotional, every girl, good book, good writing, help, men, mystery, paperback, problem solving, quick read, reading, relationship, understand men

So, I’ll now come to terms with the fact that the buying and wearing of shorts is no longer in my future. I think I made my peace with skorts many years ago, so we won’t even go there.

Technorati Tags: atmosphere, attire, cellulite, clothes, fat, legs, outside, people, play, silly, skirt, summertime, sun, thick legs, walking, wearing

TV License purchased, some research done in order to try to find the best deal, etc, we went out. Two good choices awaited us: a regular, everyday, normal, yet good-sized TV for a very good price, or a large, flat-screen LCD TV for the price you would expect, but with a spread-out payment plan which looked very affordable. We decided to go for the second option and got the attention of a shop employee so we could make our purchase.

After telling him what we wanted, the shop employee kindly informed us that with the spread-out plan, you actually have to complete the entire payment in order to take the TV home, which meant that we would have to pay for a couple of months before actually getting the TV…

Needless to say, I was a little bit shocked. Maybe it’s because I come from a country of “have it your way” and “instant results,” but it seemed to me a bit odd to expect people to make payments to a shop and not get anything in return for months on end!

In the end we went with the regular TV, with which we can view about 4 channels, only 1 clearly… so now we await our cable hook-up (as our freeview box with aerial and aerial booster doesn’t seem to receive a signal).

Technorati Tags: buying, color, colour, deal, plan, purchase, talk, television, tv, watching, weird

So at what point do you actually learn how to use the paste inside the tube? Only if you’re a child under 7 do you receive directions to “use a pea-sized amount for supervised brushing to minimise swallowing.” Then, “Please replace cap after use.” What use?

http://www.inmagine.com/cr15233/cr15233028-photo

I kind of want to vomit, look at the “girl’s” arm! In no way do they look young and I’m pretty sure that both people pictured have an X and a Y chromosome…

At least label the darn thing correctly, ” Middle-aged homophile couple,” or, “breakfast with trangender/transsexual.” Either way it still just seems like reverse discrimination to me…

Anyway, my experience yesterday further disappointed my hopes of every finding anything treatable or diagnosable in my repertoire of symptoms. I spent nearly 2 hours scrolling down what was at first quoted as 9 pages, unfortunately they declined to include the ‘half pages,’ ie – page 5i, etc into that statement. The in-depth questions ranged from anything about the fullness of the hair on my head and direction of ridges on my nails to the smell and colour of my urine, to the exact area of pain felt in my stomach, since that’s easy to pinpoint. Although tedious and mind-numbing, the detailed questions raised my hopes of receiving some kind of considerate analysis and perhaps suggestions of conditions or illnesses for which to seek testing.

Questions answered to the best of my knowledge, I clicked to send in my questionnaire and waited impatiently for the reply in my in-box. I was slightly let-down to begin with as after clicking to send it in, I was asked if I wanted to order any of three further analysis options, the computer analysis for a mere $25, the standard doctor review for $55, or the full doctor review for $77. I had to wonder what exactly would be analyzing my questionnaire if it wouldn’t even be the computer, a badger? Oh well, I still waited in anticipation… for 2 more hours…

Finally I received my diagnosis! The big news… drum roll….

I, like many other women, have a risk of breast cancer and should eat more fruits and vegetables and take exercise regularly. Hmmm… informative…

Last time I ever do an online diagnosis, unless of course it looks like it might be legit… right?

• Lia
• Lsia
• Kisa
• LIsa
• Lis
• :osa

Maybe I am the only one who’s ever felt like jumping up and screaming during a meeting, or randomly just disagreeing with everything someone says, just to see their reaction. Doing something that tells people, “I’m not that person, I’m not who you think I am!” But it’s not that easy. I wonder if in some cases it’s a box I put myself into, in order to please people, or just to make a situation easier or make a process quicker. But I think there is a line one can cross where this becomes a danger. A danger perhaps not easily detected by anyone on the outside, maybe not even by close friends (or those who consider themselves close). But I think for everyone there’s only so far you can go in a box. Maybe this is just my crazy experience, I mean, I’ve seen many living in the same situations I’ve been in and they still continue to thrive and fit… but I couldn’t.

I’m sure it’s obvious now that I’m talking not in general terms, but in terms of my own experience of being in boxes. I think the boxes were kindly meant by those around me, and weren’t completely forced upon be, but there was a sense that if I didn’t fit into the boxes, then something was wrong with me. Well, maybe there is something wrong with me. In the end the boxes could never fit and I broke out. The breaking caused a lot of hurt and painful situations, and for that I feel sorry. But the sense of freedom I’ve found, the release of pressure and expectation has brought me more happiness, peace and satisfaction than I could have hoped for.

I’m not recommending my choices or my way of being relieved from the boxes. But perhaps this blog can help prevent others from locking themselves in boxes; choosing carefully how you appear to others, or how you allow people to process your identity. For myself, I must say that there were times I tried to fight against people’s assumptions about me, but it’s difficult to change minds when they are already made up. So maybe the only real ‘advice’ I could give is for you to be yourself. How cliche is that?! Ha ha, but I guess it is a lesson I have learned the hard way. I believe I was ‘myself’ but I hid much about myself for too long, my desires, my passions, my frustrations and that, for me, led to danger and the feeling of being trapped. I allowed people to build assumptions, hopes, dreams, and plans around me and including me without being fully invested in the same. Unfortunately, those people have suffered great disappointment.

I think in my case it was the fault of both sides. Myself not revealing all to others, and others not making the effort to search deeper inside me.

Everyone needs a boyfriend blanket.

Yes, you read that right, everyone needs a boyfriend blanket. I know it sounds silly, but once you’ve had one, you can never return to normal life without it.

I highly reccommend faux suede, in fact my boyfriend blanket has one side of faux suede and the reverse is some kind of soft amazingness I can’t even describe.

And I don’t care whether you live in the desert of the Savanna or the peaks of the Himalayas, you need a boyfriend blanket. Yes, you, you need one… just trust me and imagine the soft material caressing your skin while the tough outer ‘suede’ material protects against drafts, harsh north winds, dry desert sands and the like.

Now some of you may be thinking to yourself, “hey, this article makes me feel a little funny inside because although this boyfriend blanket thing sounds enticing, I am a boy/girl who is not actually interested in anything labeled ‘boyfriend.’” Well buddy boy/girl, I have news for you; in this day and age, I don’t care whether you want to sleep next to a giraffe when night falls, a boyfriend blanket will change your life for the better, forever. (PS – you can also label it ‘girlfriend’ if you are so inclined, but in my personal opinion it just won’t be the same, so go ahead and have the guts to say, “YES, I have a boyfriend blanket and I am in love with it!)

Um, the end.

So here is where I write all of my random brilliant thoughts and whatnot, which I have lots of… right? maybe? I hope so….

Anyway, well let’s see where this goes… I hope people enjoy it, even if it only ends up being my friends and family. Oh well, isn’t that what they’re for, supporting eachother’s blogs, etc… sure, why not.

So I looked up a bunch of things about how to write a blog… and I skimmed some of them… but found most of them really boring, so I just decided to go ahead and do whatever I want on my blog… yay for freedom of speech!

Ok, I’m done rambling now… oh look, a squirrel!